So yesterday I was back at Aria again…
You know sometimes I wonder what do people think when they dance, when they scream, when they smile and look at me… Are they just happy because the place is rammed and the energy is great? Are they feeling the same thing I am feeling and they try to communicate that with me? Are they completely connected to my thoughts and my vibe and they are following every thing I am doing or about to do? Do they understand what I do behind the decks or do they just listen and stay open to what’s coming next? I really wonder…! Because it is just… MAGIC! Incredible!
I mean, I walk in there yesterday around 3AM, and to be honest I was REEEEAAALLY nervous. Usually I am not, but when it comes to Montreal gigs I guess I am. Anyhow, yesterday I was!! I was just so extremely stressed.. (yeah yeah it’s my name after all). Since about 4PM in the afternoon and for the rest of the day I could not breath properly and slowly. I just could not. I even tried to get some rest before the night but this wasn’t very successful since I was over excited, even though very tired. So I walk in the club head down, as if I was scared of something, as if seeing the huge line-up outside still at that time of the night wasn’t enough of a good sign for me of what was going on inside, as if I was about to walk towards the principal office to get punished (referring to back in the school days), but once I arrived up to the DJ booth and I felt the beats of Yaz jamming, and then when I finally decided to give a proper look to the dance floor and I saw all the people dancing already and screaming by that early in the night (for those ones who are reading and have never been to Montreal, 3AM is still very early in the evening of a night here) then the stress went away, that tiny little fear I had of God knows what left me and the biggest smile came up to my face!! All these people there, overly excited, hot and sweaty as the place was jam packed and there wasn’t an extra inch to move ANYWHERE, all this in part for me?! WOW. But I am now to the point that I am shy to speak about Montreal, because the only thing I find to say is WOW and AMAZING, and MAGIC, and GREAT, and INCREDIBLE and I AM SO HAPPY, and I AM SO TOUCHED. Isn’t that boring?!?! I am repeating myself!!!! But what else can I do? For me, for my sets, for my music, for my fans, I think Montreal is by far the best place in the world! It’s so cool! Oh, there, I found a new word I didn’t use before: COOL! Ha ha ha!!!
No wonder then I am feeling so emotional before – AND AFTER – my gigs in Montreal. It is for me a great night of pleasure but it is as well something so intense that it is very demanding for my little stomach… I know this is all pure pressure I put on myself, all alone, but this is how I feel about Montreal. It’s like the little guy in SOUTH PARK THE MOVIE that when he sees the girl he likes he can’t say much and he just throws up. HA HA! I mean, I don’t throw up but I wouldn’t be surprised if I would some day. Because every time I go back there I feel WORSE AND BETTER at the same time, than the time before. It gets busier and busier when I play in Montreal, crazier and crazier! What’s gonna happen one of these days? Will the place break down in a thousand pieces? I mean, yesterday the VIP section at ARIA (upstairs) was almost about to fall! It was almost moving up and down with the music and the loudness in there! It was UNFUCKINBELIEVABLE!!!! Excuse my language! But this is what it is.
Again I would like to thank all the people that came out yesterday for an unforgettable night. I would like to thank JFL for those 2 delicious Dom Perignon bottles (my drug and my fuel that is) and thank him and his partners too for making ARIA a real existing thing and not just a dream (for those who have never been I suggest you try it out as it is a unique experience of excellent sound and beautiful lights and visuals, and it just is the exact example of what a dream club is for every city and club owner in the world). I would like to thank also Yaz for an excellent opening set and Jack De Marseille for his kindness, patience and talent (sorry I could not stay but after a 4 hours set and 2 Dom P. I am pretty much out of order). And I would like to thank all my extra loving happy smiling greatest fans, because you are the ones that made me make the night!! If you just knew what else I would like to say to you, but I just can’t find the words.
Finally, I would like to say one of my favorite expressions, as for Montreal it is time to talk about this now: WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND….!!!!! This stands for all the bull shit that goes around Montreal (and the rest of the world, and in life generally!). Meaning that whenever you are a bad person or whenever you have horrible willing and mean thoughts, YOU WILL – eventually – go down!! Notice that it is easy to see the goods and the bads, as the bads always end up leaving while the goods stay around. And we are seeing this happening very clearly in this city right now. Evil thoughts, bluff, and lies…. you are almost over! You will go down, and you will have to leave by the back door! As they say, C U Next Tuesday eh?!….
And for those jealous unhappy fans and supporters of that mentality who are very happy to believe in all the BS and the lies and the bluff since it gives you another excuse to critic one more time about the good stuff happening to others; for those who are bitching all the time at people who REALLY DO work hard and REALLY LOVE what they do, since you are too empty to worry about your own self, you too will follow…. (with the only difference that you have never even made it for a little amount of time), so GET A LIFE before this happens!!
*** This was dedicated to all the people that are informed enough and smart enough to understand the TRUTH!***
Much love to the generous and peaceful souls.
Barbara x